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Neko

past & present!

Neon Genesis Evangelion

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as someone who was kind of in the dark about anime in general up until the last year or so, this series always struck me as some otherworldy work of art that my feeble brain was probably incapable of understanding. since it had been hyped up for so long and most of the media i consume is more on the abstract side anyways, i figured i'd take the time to try the show, and the movies, and see what it was Truly All About once and for all. after finishing it and watching breakdown after breakdown on youtube i can confidently say i'm still not entirely sure.
however what a wild ride. i had a great time following each character through their own internal crises. and there were a whole lot. plenty of sick robot moments. seriously those things are beasts. things that made me question my own ideas and perceptions of the world. a lot of questionable stuff in general. this whole thing is chock full of seriously thought provoking themes revolving around fun things like human nature and existentialism. it's been stuck on my mind. everytime i think too deeply or dramatically about something i can't help but feel shinji-fied.

Worlds.com

i found this website while on an old internet deep dive and it piqued my interest. it's an old chat service from the mid 90's that allowed you to roam around as your own avatar. also used to be apparentley pretty poppin.
this existed before i did so the nostalgia factor dips into the unknown category for me. but yet, i yearn for something i never knew.
i actually downloaded this and went exploring on it. it wasn't the easiest to navigate and although there were (surprisingly) people online, none of them really said anything. i ended up looking around online and and found a little more lore regarding old players, & the site owner who is apparentley keeping it alive out of his own pocket. i also stumbled upon some conspiracy theories about how there's allegedley some satanic cult within the game, although upon looking through the subreddit, it doesn't seem to be much more than rumors. i didn't see anything that spooky when i was on at least.
i did find some pretty cool music archives though. i recommend downloading it n checking it out if you're into that sorta thing. there's plenty of archived player-created worlds with a lot to explore

Minecraft/Nostalgia

old minecraft has a very, very special place in my heart. i had some of my silliest most bestest times on there. whether i was by myself, with my little sister, with my friends from school, or even friends i met on the online servers i would play on. I played on a server called Mineverse the most. as a kid, I frequented the creative & skywars servers. i spent a lot of my time just talking to people in chat. i was on so often, I would get tons of messages welcoming me back or just saying hey as soon as I logged on. it was the most exciting part of the day, something I would look forward to everyday at school. it was one of my first real times experiencing a community in which I didn't have to try to fit in. as I got older, and as Mineverse's activity died down, I started playing a new server, called Hypixel. this one was a lot bigger and more populated than Mineverse. I went from playing around the same groups of people every night, to hitting tab and having my entire screen obscured from the playerlist alone. I never felt the same type of community on this server, mostly due to it's size, but I had just about the same type of fun I had on there, on here. there was a signifigant portion of my 7th grade life that consisted of going online, skyping my best friend at the time, Mia, and hopping on skywars together. the pic i included is a screenshot of us, in the queue arena waiting for a game to begin, on a map that no longer exists. we squatted together and the rest of the queue joined us. it was cute. we would call for hours late into the night, then she'd get off, and i'd stay on till sunrise doing god knows what. but I was always entertained, enough to keep coming back. I don't play that much nowadays aside from the few yearly "2-week-phases", but I think about Minecraft on a day to day basis. sometimes it's my happy place. it feels like a portion of my childhood took place within the blocky confines. herobrine is like a brother to me. i digress. I love Minecraft and I will always consider it an obsession.